I want to be Cthulhu when I grow up.
Just another fuzzy pink unicorn who doesn't exist
The moment is now 
2nd-Nov-2009 12:11 am - NaNo Begins!


First day's work posted
1st-Nov-2009 02:21 pm - This was awesome enough to be screencapped.
So I play Vampire Wars over on Facebook, and there's five special limited edition abilities available for Halloween, and all are based on Horror classics. There's Blood-Soaked Vengeance (Carrie), Hierophant Transformation (Pinhead), Bile Spew (The Exorcist), Hyde's Rage (Jeckyll and Hyde), and Clown Frenzy (IT)

In order:


[info]yuuo and I together recognized all of these off the bat except for Bile Spew, so I went googling. Since I knew all the others were based on horror movies or novels-turned-movie, it was likely that this was a horror movie reference. I had nothing else to start with but that and the name of the ability.

So I googled.

The first result made me blink, stare, then begin laughing hysterically.

25th-Oct-2009 11:53 pm - PHOTOSHOP SKILLZ. I HAZ 'EM


What if one day, you wake up in a world too perfect to be real, with no memory of who you had been or how you got there, and there seems to be no one else but you. Little by little, you begin to remember your life, but what if it turns out your life never existed, and neither did you, because nature put some of man's interference to right, and you died, long ago?

This is the world in which [MAIN CHARACTER] now lives. It seems that the only future for her is one of empty nothingness, ceasing to be at all, because how can there be a future without a past? But as she starts to remember the life she had once lived, she begins to seek a way out, and uncovers a surprising truth.


Now... I just need to figure out names.
25th-Oct-2009 03:31 pm - Title Help!
Over on [info]blue_dragon, I posted a new story idea that I'm going to be doing for this NaNo. (the urban fantasy is going to be done next year -- I need more than just October to worldbuild this, I realized.)

I have an idea for a title, and while knowing the plot outline wouldn't hurt, it's not necessary for this poll. I'm looking for what sounds the best to people, what might be more likely to catch their eye on the shelf.

I was originally thinking "Chronicles of an Imaginary Mind", but I'm not sure if that's the word I want.

The title now is thus:

________________ Of An Imaginary Mind.

EDIT: As of now, it's looking very likely that the title is now "Requiem For An Imaginary Mind". If you like the sound of this one too, vote for 'other' and put in Requiem.


Poll #4514
Open to: All, results viewable to: All

What sounds best/catchier in the blank slot to you?

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Chronicles
0 (0.0%)

Memoirs
3 (42.9%)

Fables
1 (14.3%)

Other Suggestion
3 (42.9%)

Different Title
0 (0.0%)

If you picked Other Suggestion or Different Title, enter here.

17th-Oct-2009 04:57 pm - Journal for original-only writings.
[info]blue_dragon

It's friends-only.
16th-Oct-2009 06:13 pm - Let's Play Pretendy Fun Tiemz nao
The current definitions of paranormal and supernatural are things that cannot be explained by science and it's questionable if they exist.

For the purpose of this poll, pretend the ability to do magic, people who can transform between animals and human, people who have mutant-like abilities, etc., have suddenly begun coming into existence. This is now proven in the scientific and medical communities. You work for the government, and you have been given the job to come up with classifications for the following groups. What would you classify as what? If you have other suggestions, I'm all ears.


Poll #4478
Open to: All, results viewable to: All

Someone who has inborn special abilities such as telepathy, shapeshifting, extreme strength or speed, etc.

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Paranormal
6 (54.5%)

Supernatural
2 (18.2%)

Other (see comment)
3 (27.3%)

Someone who has studied and mastered magic, but has no inborn abilities like above

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Paranormal
3 (27.3%)

Supernatural
6 (54.5%)

Other (see comment)
2 (18.2%)

Someone who is not human and does not modify appearance into human, such as a Faerie or Elf

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Paranormal
5 (45.5%)

Supernatural
4 (36.4%)

Other (see comment)
2 (18.2%)

Someone who is not human but can take on a human form at will, and has a second form of an animal; i.e., wolf, tiger, dragon, eagle, water buffalo

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Paranormal
4 (36.4%)

Supernatural
4 (36.4%)

Other (see comment)
3 (27.3%)

I didn't forget

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MAH TICKEH!
9 (75.0%)

Ticky!
10 (83.3%)

Rikki-Tikki-Tavi!
7 (58.3%)

Tick.
9 (75.0%)

THE TICK!
10 (83.3%)

15th-Oct-2009 04:26 pm - You know it's that time of the year again when these posts show up
Dear Main Bad Character,

I am so glad you're finally deciding to give me information, like, oh, I don't know, your NAME, which has been a big mystery and pretty important because I can't keep calling you Main Bad Guy in my story even if it would help pad my word count.

But you did not just in all seriousness tell me that your ultimate goal in what you are doing is to go after the President and other members of the cabinet.

...you did.

WHY? Oh, I know why, but... WHY ME? I WANT A SIMPLE MYSTERY NOT SOMETHING CONVOLUTED AND INSANE.

And I know why you're doing what you're doing in order to get access something to pull off your real goal.

YOU ARE A HEADACHE AND I WILL KILL YOU. I SWEAR.

No love,
The Author
11th-Oct-2009 06:10 pm - This just made me laugh.
<ZChaos> ....................
<ZChaos> that was a disturbing commecial
<ZChaos> a man on a busy downtown public street was arguing with his reflection in the glass about talking to his doctor about erectile dysfunction before going into a clinic
<ZChaos> and the reflection's all "WE CAN DO THIS! :D :D :Db"
<UOChaos> ............................................
<UOChaos> I think the man needs to talk to his doctor about schizophrenia before he worries about his dick.
11th-Oct-2009 05:55 pm - I finally wrote again.
It's been TWO YEARS since I last wrote a fic, not counting the Nightcrawler x Gambit I wrote in exchange for a Waja. The last one I wrote and posted was October 29th of 2007.

http://asylums.insanejournal.com/chaotic_library/39733.html

This isn't inspired by anything recent. In all honesty, it's inspired by two things: Jacob's Ladder and an Emily Dickinson poem.

It's short, and not my best work, BUT BY FUCKING GOD I WROTE AND FINISHED SOMETHING.
2nd-Oct-2009 07:26 am - Awesomely creepy
A friend over on Facebook linked to this video, and man. On a purely visual level, the video made me think of Silent Hill 2 in some regards. The song itself, I looked up the lyrics and immediately recognized the case that inspired it (mentioned in the second footnote).

[info]lilin, this might be up your alley.

Lyrics and Translation: Mein Teil by Rammstein
The YouTube Video Link.
25th-Sep-2009 06:42 am - New Icon!
Yes, it's yoinkable with credit, and yes, I made it.

I also made this.

14th-Sep-2009 09:46 pm - The Associated Press: Publicist: Patrick Swayze dies at 57
http://www.google.com/hostednews/ap/article/ALeqM5iI6rYwtW5ttJYhJ51d_aPbnBpDkQD9ANEUGG0 (via shareaholic)
4th-Aug-2009 02:15 am - Wajas Adoptables Collection





Edge of Illusion )

Teufelshunde )

This We'll Defend )

Fantasmic )

Elvenpath )

Nightquest )

Stay Gold )

Fly Little Wing )

A Shining Planet )

White Knot )
1st-Jul-2009 01:58 am - State Meme
I'll do the word meme in a while.


visited 20 states (40%)
Create your own visited map of The United States or vertaling nederlands duits?
30th-Jun-2009 02:25 am - Meme time
Comment "WORDS" to this entry and I will comment back with five words I associate with you. Then you post this in your journal elaborating.


From beccastareyes )
31st-May-2009 11:10 pm - Comment Rot solved
Comment rot problem fixed. If you've ever had a problem with comments disappearing on IJ entries, Squeaky finally tracked down the problem and fixed it. Just a general FYI.
31st-May-2009 06:47 pm - Educate Against Prop 8
How Would You Feel?

(Link found via Randy Milholland on Twitter)

YouTube embedded video behind cut )
28th-May-2009 10:59 am - Cast of characters - Nexus gaming
Comprehensive listing of all characters played by me in the Nexus. For more information, visit [info]yuuo's list.


Fullmetal Alchemist - Male Characters )

Fullmetal Alchemist - Female Characters )

Other Fandoms )
25th-May-2009 05:26 pm - Just an FYI
Changed my username. I didn't care to keep the last connection left to a certain somebody, lingering like... well... a rotten stench.
7th-Nov-2008 07:05 am - Am I angry about Prop 8? No. I can't afford to be.
Someone posted wondering if they were out of line for being upset at a comment elsewhere from someone else saying they weren't as upset as some other people about the passing of Prop 8.

That, and the other comments, got me thinking. Am I being flippant or a traitor for not being angry, for not being well and truly pissed -- or maybe more accurately, for not letting myself feel pissed, for letting myself feel calm and assured that no, it WILL be overturned?

I don't think so.

I'm not frothing at the mouth enraged about this. I'm upset, but I'm not furious. That's not to say that the defeat doesn't make me angry-- it does. But it's how anger manifests with me, and how I handle it. It's entirely possible the other person is similar to me in how they approach anger.

If I let myself get angry, right here, right now, in Texas, without a clear viable target I can immediately launch a counterstrike against beyond ranting into the void, it's going to burn me up, burn me out, make me tired and make me feel defeated and hopeless. It's ineffectual raging. I can't be angry, I can't be upset -- not as upset as so many others are -- because if I let myself hit those levels, I'll skyrocket -- then burn out and go into a tailspin and crash into apathy and exhaustion.

It angered me, but I cannot afford to let myself have that anger because getting Prop 8 overturned means that much to me. I have a very terrible and very swift and very destructive temper that is hard to rein in, especially once it ignites. I am working very hard to stay calm, because if I start to erupt, I'll burn out into a sense of apathy and defeat and surrender and I cannot afford to let that happen. Not with this.

So no. I'm not as angry and upset as so many others are either. Yes, I hold unshakeable conviction that this will be overcome.

Prop 8's overturning means that much to me. I cannot afford to not feel the way I do.

Many people are in a place where they're more able to speak out against it, more able to do something that means something. I don't really go out much- if I did, I might do what one person did, and pin "Victim of Prop 8" on my shirt. Make ourselves visible. I'm not out to my family, otherwise, I'd do it just around town. I can't afford to donate money, I don't know what I can do, beyond being angry. I'm not legally married, I don't live in a state where that's possible, let alone California, so I can't join in the no taxes protest.

If you can be angry and not burn out, then more power to you. But not everyone can. Conviction that it will be overturned and lack of apparent rage does not always equal a flippant attitude.

I'll save my rage for later, for times when I have a direct target for it. For times when I need to be impassioned and fiery and fervent. When I need to tap into deep wells of conviction and passion and argue, and fight, and fuel my energy for doing something when I have something concrete TO do.

Right now, it would just burn uselessly, and leave me defeated. I can't afford to be angry. Not yet. Not here. Not today.

When I can afford to, it will be paid in full, with the accumulated interest.

But not before.

Burn the bridge behind you, leave no retreat. There's only one way home. Those who laugh and crowd the path and cut each other's throats will fall like melting snow. We'll watch them rise with fire in our eyes, they'll bow their heads, their hearts will hang low, and we will laugh and they will kneel and they will know that this heart of steel was too hard to break, too hard to hold. Stand and fight, live by your heart, always one more try. I'm not afraid to die. Stand and fight, say what you feel, born with a heart of steel.
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